A letter to my 2-weeks ago self

You’re going to be fine.

In hindsight, you knew you would. But that obviously didn’t save you from the restless nights, the panic attacks, or worst-case scenarios playing out in your head. But you can calm down!

Actually, it’s probably okay that you’re freaking out. It’s motivating! Just make sure you’re having these little episodes in front of no one. If anyone must see, let it be the people who are going to love you anyways.

I know you’re sick of the questions. “What are you doing now that you’ve graduated?” “What kind of work are you looking to do?” “What places are you looking at?” Well, you’ll answer those questions soon enough. Unsurprisingly, they’re still annoying, and you still won’t want to answer them, even though your responses have changed. You’ll start to question if all we ever care about is status and identifying ourselves in the jobs we hold.

You’re on the right path to finding yourself. Don’t worry about the job, because God will bring you the right one when you least expect it; and in less time than you think. Or maybe it’s not the right one? It’s too soon to tell, but I have that inkling that we’re right where we’re supposed to be at the moment.

Keep finding yourself, and what makes you happy. It doesn’t have to make you money yet. Even the people who love you most and are desperately trying to help you be happy can’t tell you what it is in the end. But be thankful for them anyways.

Life isn’t any easier once you find that job. Now there is actual work to do. But you’re helping people, and that’s good. It’s not the final destination, either, so just be happy where you are now.